好想你

今天特别想你啊
怎么办
我还以为我可以忍
真的没想到
是酱难的


快点回来
至少打个电话给我
好想听你的声音哦

although its oni for a week

he went beijing wit his parents n sis
for a week
i dun miss him
then im lying
i cant even call or sms him
T.T

kinda suffering..
bt luckily tis week i was also out wit frens
at least wont miss so much
hehe

i knw its bad to rush him
its his holiday
bt.. can u pls faster cm bk..?
><






anyway i found a dress!!!
super likey!!
frm forever 21 tat is forever expensive!!!
*quoted frm angie ong*

wanted to call him
or even sms him
to ask for his opinion
bt he is nt around
sobxx T.T

haiz
hope tat i can find a cheaper dress tat luks jz like tis 1 ><

hello besties!!

its time to meet the old besties again!!
so glad to meet them!!
gonna miss them so so much!! ><

these r the 2 ppl i met 1st..
hehe


pei shi , i , lin ann

both of them are nw working
im glad tat they r doin well in their working life =))

someone (OSK) suggested to go chillex bt she put aeroplane.. ishhh!!
n so left 3 of us
chillex actualy stands for chill n relax

we tried a gigantic burger tat can feed 3-4 person
n yes im full afta eating a quarter of it haha



darling pei shi!!



the special design in chillex


finally b4 cmin back to penang
i get to meet my darling angie ong
who is oways bz wit her studies hahax
rili talk non stop wit her
cant find another person like her
*heart*!!!

we 1st went honeymoon n it was nt open yet. ZZzzZZ
then we decided to jz wait inside
sudenly angie tot of the special cone pizza
haha
we went thr afta honeymoon =)



leng lui angie!!



me wit cone pizza!!

nothin's gonna change my love for you

he went for sing k 2gthr wit his frens today
i didnt join cz gotta do revision for exam
hmm


i was revising
then he called
"nothin's gonna change my love for u..."


haha


he was singing the song to me
tats.."our song"
haha


it was short
bt sweet
tats all i need
simple as we can be =)
thnx pi ^^

stupid mistake!!

jz finish bm test
karangan n pembetulan tatabahasa


b4 entering the hall i asked a fren
how many isi 2 wite 4 the karangan
she said 3
okay
3


went into hall
wrote karangan wit 3 isi
n 10 pembetulan tatabahasa


time's up
hand in paper


went out frm the hall
discuss wit frens


sudenly a fren told me karangan shud write 5 isi
i was like *blank*


then i recall wat my teacher said
yes indeed
5 isi!


stupid tan hui ling!!
nw oni u recall?? har???
y not wait til result is out oni u recall??
stupid!!!


the oni A i aim for
flew away


nw i oni hope i wont fail

STUPID

God bless

its the 1st day of finals
feel so nervous nw
its i like i read bt i din
i read bt i 4gotten
ishhhh
nervous nervous


Dear Lord
i rili need u nw
pls help me n oso my beloved frens
pls guide us


hope can maintain my cgpa ><
*finger crossed*

happi doggie day

its 8th of the month!!!
tot u would have 4gotten bt u din.. hahaah
gd job!!
gt improvement!! xp


happi 9th ^^
rmb our quote--
每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
walk along the path 2gthr k?
=)







tis is specially 4 u..
dun complain le.. xp


full of love,
be..

The Dream

took a nap jz nw
n.. dreamt of the same dream again..
hmm..


the beggining was blur
i couldnt remeber for wat i dreamt of the last few time
bt i knw
its at tis shopping mall
the parking lot is very slopy
very~


tis time i dreamt of quarelling wit my dear fren liuyan in the mall
the reason we quarreled is
she put tings into my bag without my permission
n i felt angry cz my bag is sudenly very heavy n the worst is
she doesnt admit she put it in
haha


then we left
not 2ghter
i remember the parking lot
i was in this car wit anothr 4 people
i tink in my family
cant remember


then i gt back to the SCENE
tis SCENE is wat being repeated


its in the shopping mall
its like a corner
surrounded by 3 walls
im facing them


i can see many tings on the wall
photos an paintings pasted on it
n ppl drawing on the wall


i remember
everytime i cm to tis SCENE
i m very happi
i wil have a pen wit me
n start drawing o writting on the wall


i can jump as high as i could
n..i was floating in the air
i can slowly draw o write watever i like


wen im done
thrs tis woman
wit bold hair
wil clap her hands
n then
i woke up


the dream
in the beggining was oways sad ting o bad ting
then i wil cm to the slopy car park
the walls
the drawings
im happy
the woman clappping hands
which is a happy ending


does it mean anyting?

《背影》

读书读闷了
突然找到一些有趣的东东


2010年3月14日
我第一次在台上表演唱歌
《背影》..是歌的名字
是学哥姐的创作
其实还有另外一首
叫《家圆》
是我、柳燕和淑慧合唱的
但是没有录影
还在柳燕那儿~


《背影》
歌里讲述的是
孩子在爸爸因某些原因离开他的时候
孩子心里的痛与思念


很喜欢这首歌
很感动的旋律和歌词


练习和彩排时
竟然有人感动得哭了
证明这首歌真是一级棒
嘻嘻



《背影》
作词: Cj Wong, EricOne
作曲：Anna Wong
主唱：慧宁

我问天你在哪里
毫无木的在寻觅
也许你还在逃避
也许你身不由己
但我从不埋怨


我问天爱在哪里
为何爱转身离去
你赐我家的秘密
但意义从不说明
我始终不解


我无法不想念
我无法不眷恋
窗外没你的空秋千
如今爱还停放在原点


你留下的背影 含着淡淡泪滴
我努力抓紧 却碰不到你
冷冷回音 心结成冰
填补路途空白记忆
（填满我的心）


爱 剩下的背影 被你抛在后面
希望你出现 家圆能实现
给我时间 多爱你一遍
把你永远留在我身边
爸爸 请你回到我身边


“给我时间 多爱你一遍”
超喜欢这句~ ^^


本来想把录影po上来
可是不知怎么了
po不到
算了
下次吧 ^^

哭过。就好了。

又哭了
真没用
经不起一点点压力
可是
这就是我疏解压力的方式
你阻止我哭
我反而更想哭


我已经有预感
觉得
这次成绩不会很好
中期考试的成绩已经不理想了
何况是 final


妈
你常说
我对自己要求高
给自己不必要的压力
可是这次
我已经放低要求了
为什么还是酱？
妈，对不起
让你失望了


爸
每次谈起成绩
你都会送我那四个字
“顺其自然”
谢谢爸
对我那么有信心


阿爸天父
我好压力
好需要你
我在乎求你
听见了吗？



常常会酱想：
如果我没得到 Hong Leong 的奖学金
就好了
至少没那么压力
可是酱想
又好像有点欠扁


哭了
真的舒服很多
我就是酱
表笑我


好
继续冲刺！！

冷

最近
槟城经常下雨
一整天的气候就是。。冷冰冰的
冷风不断的吹。。
仿佛身在云顶。。


在房间，根本就不需要开风扇。。
有个比较怕冷的朋友还夸张到要穿袜子保暖。。
呵呵~

昨天北大发生水灾。。
也不知道严不严重
就只看了一些录影
有些人还可以拿这件事情来开玩笑。。 ==
不明白~


有人说
接下来水灾会来到槟城


真的吗？
不知道。
总之。。大家小心点。。
都不能去逛街，因为市场都靠近海边。。
好。
那就乖乖留在房间拼书~


但是~
酱的天气。。搞到每个人的心情懒洋洋的~
唉~
才刚睡醒，就很想睡觉。。
每个人都是酱咯。。
不只是我一个~呵呵


雨季
是雨季吗？
不知道
不晓得


现在，连洗个手都超冷滴~
很好。不用冲凉咯~ =X

有完没完？？

woohoooo~ 内部观摩终于圆满结束了~
学弟妹们都跳得很好。。
没白费我的努力哈哈~


终于可以松下来了~
下星期就是 study week 了。。
真的希望可以 100% 好好专心读书了~
不要开会！不要练舞！
ANTI ANTI!!


结果~唉~
第二天就立刻马上收到好多讯息~
我的时间表又排满了~ T.T


星期一--理华中期检讨会议
星期二--Career Fair Meeting & 歌舞比赛会议
星期三--Appreciation Dinner (要穿什么去？？)
星期四--舞蹈组会议
星期五--（暂时是空闲的)


T.T
这些会议、活动。。
到底有完没完啊？！？！

alone

最近，觉得好孤独。
身边少了很重要的东西。。
好难得可以得到，却很轻易地，就可以放掉。


我不能没有你们，
我需要你们。
我看到你们到处去吃喝玩乐，
却没被邀一起去，我会伤心。


或许，
你们觉得我有了他，
不需要你们。
你们错了。。
我生命里，不能没有你们。
我好怀念，
好怀念以前大家在一起的日子。。
怎么现在。。。。


这些日子，也让我看清了某些人。
人，好复杂。
为什么？
难道大家就不能真诚地对待对方么？
为什么。。要把自己弄得那么恐怖呢？


我开始害怕，
害怕交朋友。。
害怕交到善于利用人的大坏蛋！
不喜欢。


最近，
通常都是一个人。

为什么怪我？

对，今天一整天没有课。
对，今天你很空闲，没事做。
你想出去玩。


但是不是每个人都像你酱没事做。
我不知道其他人，可是我自己真的是有事情跑不开，
没办法陪你出去玩。


那有什么大不了？
最多不是安排改天去啦~
可是你却跟我说气话。。
搞到好像我得罪你酱。。
要我跟你解释好多次你还是酱。。


很累的
你知道吗？


为什么要怪我？
我没做错什么。。
我不能陪你出去玩，你可以找别人啊。。
为什么搞到像是我的错酱？
唉。。
你又成功搞坏了我心情。
恭喜你


我真的不明白，
真的搞不懂，
你几时才会去成熟去思考。
不要再酱孩子气可以吗？
我真的很累耶。。

Dislike

wo yue lai yue dislike ta le..
zen me ban??????
grrrrhhhhhhhh!!!!!! ><

i GV UP a TRIP!!!!!

my frens organised a trip to cameron tomorro...

i was so exited and i promised to join

i was so so so loooking 4ward to tis trip as i knw joining tis bunch of crazy frens wil be very fun..

HOWEVER,

i didnt have time for tat!!

i hv gt so many tings to do!!!!

i hv to stay back in sku to settle my assignments n stuff..

SOB MAX!!

my frens r so kind tat they say they wil keep a place for me, in case i changed my mind..

i hope i had a choice~

bt.. sory my dear frens!!! i dun hv choice!!! >.<

anyway~ hope they njoy their time in cameron..

n dun 4gt to bring me cherrie tomatoes!!

ASSIGNMENTS

哇！！

好难做的功课啊！！

找来找去都找不到资料！！

快没时间了啦！！

快崩溃了啦！！

怎么办？？！！！

主啊!!!! T.T

Outing

happy outing wit wynyi, derick, kavun n xiao bai!! XD

宵夜。开心！

昨天的心情
不知何故。。就很差
跳完舞
就突然哭了



这不是第一次了
无缘无故流眼泪
还对你发了小脾气
对不起
或许
最近压力大吧
哭
就是我发泄的方式吧


后来你打包了寿司给我
unagi & prawn
我一看到真的超超超西北开心的！！
哈哈



谢谢你，我心情真的好很多 ^^


最近大家心情都很差
很压力
好多事情要赶
大学生涯
真的有喜有乐
而且是极端的~ T.T
一起努力吧。。我们可以的。。
加油

我错了吗？

我们怎么了？

怎么话题越来越少了？

怎么越来越像陌生人？

到底是怎么了？

我做错了吗？

我努力找话题

我努力关心你

我知道我忽略了你

所以常常觉得很内疚

想办法补救

但是你却不理不睬

而且还说出酱的话

或许

你不觉得怎样

但我心好痛

他们说

我太宠你了

不该酱下去

可是我不听

因为我觉得这就是你

如果我也想他们酱训你

你一定会很伤心

所以我没酱做

可是

我累了

有时你说话

很伤我的心我都没说

因为我不想伤我们的感情

只有默默地在心里流泪

这好像是逃避

可是

我真的不想跟你起冲突

所以。。才酱。。

我不想失去你这个朋友

所以。。才酱。。

可是，我还可以做什么呢？

long time no see

Hello bloggie..

It has been so so long..

Grow wit spider web ady??

dusty?? hmmm..

Suddenly feel like dropping by here..

wana tell u so many tings bloggie..

many tings happened tis few months

happiness.. sadness.. loneliness..

everyting mixed 2gthr nw.. so.. so..

its almost final bt i stil cant gear up to do revision.

wat happened to me?? haiz..

i changed??

ya.. people say i changed..

~photos on 150110~

Nicely Planned Surprise

Darling Liu Yan brought Yee Ling & I to Redbox today to celebrate my 20th birthday..
Derrick and the gang was suppose to come too..
But then Liu Yan told me they will not be coming already cause Derrick needs to go back home.
So I was like.. ‘Okay lo.. Nevermind lo.. We celebrate only lo..”
Yea disappointed.. but what can I do?

We went on with our plan.
We sang songs and we had fun.

An hour later,
Liu Yan went out after answering a phone call.
Said she wana pass something to her friend.

After a few minutes,
A waiter open the door and came in..
I don’t know why he came in..
He just walked into the room empty-handed.

Then..
I saw reflection on the door.
Hahahah~
I saw Ka Vun holding a cake.

Gotcha!
I shouted ‘ Ohh I saw you!!!’ (哇~超没有形象咯我~呵呵)
Then THEY started singing birthday song and came in.
Haha~

I was.. so surprised..
Surprised to see Derick and the gang.
Surprised to see Josephine and Vinye.
And surprised to see Constance and Lina!!!

Only 3 words came into my mind at that time..
OMG!

The cake they bought is my favorite Chocolate Indulgence!!
Also received my birthday pressie..
A nice dress and a t-back..hahah~ ( Liu Yan’s style )
I thought Liu Yan bought that dress for herself.. hahaha~
But actually she bought it cz she knows I liked it..
TQ darling..
And the t-back.. I will keep it nicely haha~

Thank you Derrick
Thank you Ka Vun
Thank you Zhi How
Thank you Shang Zhu
I really thought you guys are not coming..
You guys really got me.
Really very happy to see you.. ^^
Hahaha~ TQ TQ!! *huggies*

Thank you Josephine
Thank you Vinye
You both got me too.
I tried to ajak you but you said you are not free.
Was very surprised to see you both came.. haha~
TQ TQ!! *muahh muahhh*

Thank you Constance
I thought you really went UUM
I know you are suppose to go UUM..
But you ppk your friend because of me..
OMG thank you thank you for doing that..
So touching.. and I really appreciate it..
TQ TQ!! *muahhh muahhh*

Thank you Lina
I was very very surprised to see you Lina..
Really..Very..
OMG thank you for coming too..
You can actually tumpang Liu Yan’s car but you purposely took bus with Constance just to give me a surprise.. OMG thank you sooo much..
If I am not mistaken you wanted to go for lecture class today also but you skipped because of me..
OHH.. love you darling..
TQ TQ!! * muahh muahhh*

Thank you Yee Ling
You showed up..
TQ TQ!!! Hahahahahah~
*muahhh muahhh muahhhh*

Thank you Darling Liu Yan
I don’t know how long you have been planning for this
The cake, the lies, the pressie, the ppl..
I know you have been busy to plan this..
Wow~ Really thank you so much..
I don’t know how to express my feeling through words
But I wana tell I really appreciate what you have done for me
And I am very very very very happy and touched.
Thank you darling!!
Nothing else but thank you. XD
TQ TQ!!! *muahhh muahhh muahhh muaksssss*

Wow~ a great birthday I had this year..
Hope that it’s a good start. ^^
Thank you my dear friends.
You guys are really good at keeping secrets haha~
You guys really got me this time.. XD
Glad to have you guys as my friends..
Love ALL OF YOU!! C=

P/S:
Photos will be uploaded later cz they are all in Liu Yan’s newly bought camera. ^^

My Day

14 January 2010,
Late at night,
I was at concourse,
Helping Josephin to teach the traditional dance.
My very first time on traditional dance..
And I am loving it.. ^^

While I was taking a rest beside the sofa,
Ah Hao, Vincent and Raymond suddenly sat around me and ask for the time.
I looked at my phone.
It was 12.01am.
Haha~

I thought they wanted to sing me a birthday song.
Who knows they ran away after that.
I forced them to but they still don’t wana sing.. haha~

Then I heard Josephin saying
“Ok lets stop for awhile, lets sing a birthday song for Hui Ling..”
And there they sang.. ^^
In the concourse..
When many other strangers are there looking at us..
Hahah~

After practicing the dance we went to the meeting room..
And there they sang again..
Hahahah~
Vincent sang very ‘well’.. ^^

Then we went for supper at Khaleel..
An Indian restaurant.. or a 3 star mamak stall..
Suddenly they sang birthday song again hahaha~
I was like “why?? Again?? What for so many time??”
Hahhaha~
Then Vincent & Ah Hao brought in a chapatti ( or thosai..whatever..)
Written “happy” with mayonnaise..
And “B’day” with chili sauce..
Hahahahha~

It was really surprising.. hahah~
TQ guys.. TQ some members of Kung Fu Club ^^
Thanks for the chapatti cake.. XD

亲戚来访

今天
舅舅，
舅母，
婆婆，
还有小表妹来到了槟城游玩。

打完鼓后，
便与他们一起去了 Queensbay Mall。

一看见婆婆，
发现她瘦了。
婆婆看见我，
却叫我别吃那么多~ ==

还有我可爱的小表妹。。
上次新年看见她时都还没学会爬。。
现在，
却学会走路了~
小小只~
很可爱哟~ ^^

我们在某某餐厅吃晚餐。。
那边的招待真差。。
竟然忘了我和舅舅的奶茶。。
忘了还不用紧。。
提醒了他们却捧来了我们没有order的东西。。
Zzzzz…

食物也不怎么样。。
虽然我觉得还好。。
可是舅舅，舅母和婆婆都觉得食物太咸。。
不好吃。。
所以结论是，
以后别去那里浪费钱。

虽然晚餐吃得不满意，
我却得到了一些收获。。 ^^

前辈看到自己的孙子，
就会想买些东西给他们。
我可爱婆婆也不例外。

婆婆让我选了些衣服。。
然后买了下来给我。
那两件衣服我都很喜欢。。
谢谢婆婆~ ^^

当然婆婆也买了件衣服送给她自己。。
还有一件送给她女儿，我妈妈。

也要谢谢舅舅和舅母驾车远从Batu Feringgi来找我。。
虽然你们说不远。。
可是很多人都说很远。。
谢谢咯~ ^^

本来打算跟他们回去酒店，
明天跟他们一起去玩，
不要去上课。呵呵~
可是最后还是打消了这个念头。。
乖乖回宿舍，
明天乖乖上学去~ =(

婆婆送给我的衣服~

010110

Its the very first day of 2010.
My cell group at Penang held a celebration.
New year celebration.. and also birthday celebration for those born in January..
* I am one of them * ^^

This cell group is a new cell group..
Added so many people..

Each of us brought a kind of food to the gathering..
I made sandwhich.. ^^

Then we had some games..
and exchanging prezziessss..

It was quite fun..
And extremely fuuuulllllllllll !!!!